I can't believe I have to write another one of these. Yes, yes, I know. Statistically, the odds are against me... but still, I wasn't ready to write it yet. Not this soon.
I haven't followed the team fervently like some of you guys have. I only started following the team with the success of the West Coast Express, and it carried forward into today. I survived Lidstrom putting the nail in the coffin to Cloutier's career, Big Bert's temporary loss of humanity. I've been disappointed with losing Championships in the last game (SCF '11), last minute (EPL '12, to a hometown rival no less). I've survived. I dealt with crap that went on in that Boston series, and I believed our team was better. We were screwed by the refs, I told myself. I dealt with the disappointment of the Sundin era, I dealt with Kesler struggling on the ice with one leg, and I figured I could deal with this too.
After the SCF 11 run, there was bitter disappointment, and resentment, but all feelings of that was erased by the disgust and sickening sight of a bunch of inebriated morons destroying our collective reputations and our beautiful city. I was able to look forward to a new season, and the team lived up to its lofty standards with stellar play. It all changed with that fateful Boston game, and from then on, nothing was the same.
The SCF '12 run was disappointing too, and yet, it made sense. The Kings were a better team, and they deserved to win. Again, there was some semblance of hope looking into the future, because with a full and healthy compliment of players, I felt the team was going to be a match.
Tonight, is a different story. For the first time in a long time, the result of the game felt.... empty. I couldn't stand that feeling, I didn't even watch the end of the third period. I can't find any reasons for optimism, any positive signs to cling to. I wasn't mad, annoyed, upset. I just felt hollow. Granted, the refereeing was atrocious, and I do hope the NHL look into it if they hope to continue to field a good product, because the job those refs did ruins the game. There is so little consistency between LA series and this series, I just wonder whether we're watching 2 separate sports at times. But to blame the result on the calls would just be taking the easy way out. The team didn't deserve to beat the Sharks, not with them playing such poor hockey. The refs merely guided the inevitability of the results.
I'm going to get some rest and get away from the board for a little while. I just need to get over this whole thing. But I'll be back. I'll be there when the new season begins. I'll be there when there IS something to look forward to. I'll be there when we make our way back to the playoffs and the Cup again.